WindyThePlaneh

www.furaffinity.net/user/windy…
Not sure if I am going to upload anything there but we will see..

Yay It is also my dad's birthday too x3
I am turning 17 years old today

_{and yeah, I need to manually say it is my birthday because when I did my account, I put in a fake birthday because I thought it wasn't ok for a 13 year old to say what their birthday is >.>;; Now I reject doing that >.< ...}

And I will try not to be sad and stuff today, especially since it is my dad's birthday and my birthday ;w; yeah...
_{many common things makes me discourage like making art when I know i have school work to do and stuff like that... just saying...} so I will try to be happy today :,3

Well, not sure if you guys know but on youtube, there are these type of videos that name always begins with "When I'm *insert verb, character name, adjective, or ect here*" and it is like a video slide show or so just showing images and/or video about it.
So really long time ago, I always wanted to do one with planes and I did now and here it is
(and yeah, "when I'm bored" was the video that started this video meme, just saying...)


Hehe, what do you think?
And also, I hope you enjoy it! ^^

I don't know if I might do more of these in the future but time will tell...
_{now to sleep because it is 2:32 AM in the morning >.>}

So, lets see.
I got...
- 6 chibi plane drawings I need to do
- 2 photo manipulation I got to do(well, I am still waiting for the reply of one of the person to see what they want me to do so I guess just 1 request of that type so far?)
- 4 logo vector requests(I got more(3 more to be exact) on the youtube comments but I don't know them so I am not going to do the logo requests...)
- 1 plane drawing of a 767 OC(I don't know, maybe I should do it as a chibi instead? Maybe I should ask the person who requested it >.>)
- 1 outline request(sorry for taking a long time to do it, I don't know, outlining is not my fav. thing to do...)

In total: 14

Chibis planes take me about 3 hours or more
logos takes me also 3 hours or more
Photo manipulation depends but it usually is about an hour or a little bit more..
drawings takes me days or hours
Outlining takes me, well, it depends on my mood so yeah...

- Doing all 6 chibis will take me 18 hours or so to complete them all(that is about 1 day and 6 hours!
- Doing all logos will take me about the same as chibis
- if I do photo manipulation, it will take me about hours but not a whole day
- Outlining, if I am in a good mood or something, I can do it fast but if not, I might take a few days to be completed(especially if I want to make sure the outline looks good or so..)... sorry

Please, don't think I am selfish or I am complaining, I am just letting you guys know about this, ok?
Also, my mom doesn't like me drawing, especially planes
She says that art if just a hobbie that only rich people do and that drawing things for people is just a waste of time and it won't get me anywhere in life! She also once called my art lines and scribbles! Like, come on, I make good art, good quality art, right? She doesn't seem to think my art is worth doing it.. *sigh*...

I hate when she says that! I try to avoid drawing in her presence so she does not complain... I just pretend doing my schoolwork so she can leave me alone but I am actually trying to draw but my mood gets in the way and I get nothing done. I feel like choked, I feel like I am just pressuring my own self because I know requests are not suppose to be important(ok, maybe for some of you...) but I do make them important and it just makes me feel like I need to work on them but I don't have the mood to do it because of what my mom says...
It makes me really sad... it makes me wonder if it is worth doing all of these requests. Like, really? REALLY? What do I look like? I have all the time of the world and the mood to do it?!? I don't, I just feel sad... stressed... I feel like I am making myself feel like a slave to people, like I can't do my own art because I feel like people will hate/get angry/impatient/ect on me and think I am forgetting/ignoring/doesn't care/ect for their request but I am not! I don't want people to think like that... I do care I just don't have the mood, time, or motivation to do it... I don't know anymore ...
I just want to stop getting requests.. ok?...
I just, I am somewhat depress by this...

Maybe if I do commissions, then maybe doing the art would be worth it?
I don't know, many people has told me to start doing commissions instead and maybe I should...
maybe that might make my mom stop complaining of me doing art for nothing in return? Maybe it might make it worth all the time I put in on the art work I do?
I don't know, what do you guys think?...

Ok, I am not sure if you can call it a nightmare but I do somewhat worry that it can happen in real life D:
Ok, so here is what I dreamed last night...

I was in a house or a room. I am not sure where I was but I had old iPhone with me(the iPhone I have in real life). All of the sudden, for some reason, old iPhone was falling apart!! It wasn't you typical broken screen, it was actually falling apart, the screen feel apart, the cover on the back fell off, and I could see the inside of old iPhone(well, I never seen the inside of an iPhone but I have in my dream, well, how I imagine on how it looked like...). When the phone was breaking apart, I started to see green goo coming out of it, I don't know why though, I think that tore apart my old iPhone
I started to think to myself "oh no, not old iPhone, the only iPhone I ever have... Even if it couldn't support newer apps, even if the camera was so bad, even if safari was so slow, it was still a good phone and now I lost it... I had good memories with it, it was the first iPhone I jailbreaked by myself, it had almost 3 or 5 years of music that I found to listen to and the only device that I use to listen to music with, and so on... I don't know if I can ask my parents to get me a new phone though... now that I think about it, I don't even feel like getting a new phone... old iPhone was special to me now I lost it..."
It was terrible, I felt so bad in my dream... I wished I could had prevented it from happening though...
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But I am glad it was a dream and not real life. Now that I think about it, I should take care more of my old iPhone after dreaming of that..

and also, for the new people reading about my dreams about my devices, I sometimes make journals about them, I might make a journal listing every journal of the dreams I had soon~..