So, lets see.
I got...
- 6 chibi plane drawings I need to do
- 2 photo manipulation I got to do(well, I am still waiting for the reply of one of the person to see what they want me to do so I guess just 1 request of that type so far?)
- 4 logo vector requests(I got more(3 more to be exact) on the youtube comments but I don't know them so I am not going to do the logo requests...)
- 1 plane drawing of a 767 OC(I don't know, maybe I should do it as a chibi instead? Maybe I should ask the person who requested it >.>)
- 1 outline request(sorry for taking a long time to do it, I don't know, outlining is not my fav. thing to do...)
In total:
14Chibis planes take me about
3 hours or morelogos takes me also
3 hours or morePhoto manipulation depends but it usually is
about an hour or a little bit more..
drawings takes
me days or hours
Outlining takes me, well, it depends on my mood so yeah...
- Doing all 6 chibis will take me 18 hours or so to complete them all(that is about
1 day and 6 hours!
- Doing all logos will take me about the same as chibis
- if I do photo manipulation, it will take me
about hours but not a whole day
- Outlining, if I am in a good mood or something, I can do it fast but if not, I might take a
few days to be completed(especially if I want to make sure the outline looks good or so..)... sorry
Please, don't think I am selfish or I am complaining, I am just letting you guys know about this, ok?
Also, my mom doesn't like me drawing, especially planes
She says that art if just a hobbie that only rich people do and that drawing things for people is just a waste of time and it won't get me anywhere in life! She also once called my art lines and scribbles! Like, come on, I make good art, good quality art, right? She doesn't seem to think my art is worth doing it.. *sigh*...
I hate when she says that! I try to avoid drawing in her presence so she does not complain... I just pretend doing my schoolwork so she can leave me alone but I am actually trying to draw but my mood gets in the way and I get nothing done. I feel like choked, I feel like I am just pressuring my own self because I know requests are not suppose to be important(ok, maybe for some of you...) but I do make them important and it just makes me feel like I need to work on them but I don't have the mood to do it because of what my mom says...
It makes me really sad... it makes me wonder if it is worth doing all of these requests. Like, really? REALLY? What do I look like? I have all the time of the world and the mood to do it?!? I don't, I just feel sad... stressed... I feel like I am making myself feel like a slave to people, like I can't do my own art because I feel like people will hate/get angry/impatient/ect on me and think I am forgetting/ignoring/doesn't care/ect for their request but I am not! I don't want people to think like that... I do care I just don't have the mood, time, or motivation to do it... I don't know anymore
...
I just want to stop getting requests.. ok?...
I just, I am somewhat depress by this...
Maybe if I do commissions, then maybe doing the art would be worth it?
I don't know, many people has told me to start doing commissions instead and maybe I should...
maybe that might make my mom stop complaining of me doing art for nothing in return? Maybe it might make it worth all the time I put in on the art work I do?
I don't know, what do you guys think?...